A Sober Christian
“For we know that our old self was crucified with Him so that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be a slave to sin-“
On this Good Friday I find blessings in my addictions, blessings tied to my first day of sobriety many years ago.
After one night crying out, “God help me!” to a cold and lonely November sky in 1996, HERE a chain of events put me on a path to change. Before I knew it, I found myself in the basement of a small local church and in turn to the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. There I admitted that I was an alcoholic and then I attempted to turn my will and my life over to the care to the god of my understanding, my “higher power.”
In time, as I became more comfortable with my new found sobriety, I started working with new-comers, wanting to freely give back what had so freely been given to me. I also frequented Step Studies, Big Book, and 12 and 12 studies in an effort to better understand the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous and the AA 12 & 12.
As one of the 12 Steps, Step 2 specifically states that we “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves can restore us to sanity.” While the program of Alcoholic Anonymous gives each person the latitude to identify and name their own “higher power,” I have come to believe that the higher Power in my life is the Son of the Most High, Jesus of Nazareth, the Christ.
Once I came to this personal conclusion and continued to work AA’s 12 Step program, I made the decision to make the effort to better understand the teachings of Jesus in the New Testament of the Holy Bible. As Step 11 suggests, we are to seek “through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understand Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the Power to carry that out.”
Today I understand and believe that the old life I lived, one of an intoxicated, self-serving, dishonest, egotistical sinner, had been done away with, absorbed by Christ as he hung on the cross. Today I believe that my cry for help was a knock at the door and that the chain of events leading me to the rooms of Alcoholic Anonymous was the door coming ajar.
Today, I am still a man and I am still a sinner. Today, my faith in the grace of God through his son Jesus Christ, gives me the courage to open the door and, through faith, face my mistakes and my sins. Today, I seek His will for me this day. Today, I pray that I can encourage others to do away with their addictions and knock on the door. Today I am no longer a slave to sin.
God bless you this day.
Jon B. Korn
Alcoholic, Addict & Sinner
Nar-Anon Family Groups