Colossians 2:8 NIV
“See to it than no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which deepens the human tradition and the basic principles of the world, rather than on Christ.”
Sobriety is such a wonderful thing. It brings freedom from our addictions and allows us to participate in life as we never were able to in the past. It gives us the courage to walk among our fellows, no longer bound to our past. We are now free to actively take part in and, to actively be part of, all the things alcoholism and drug addiction kept us from in the past.
But much like the recovering alcoholic and addict I was, and still can be, in early sobriety I soon found myself overwhelmed with things to do, people to see, and places to go. I was almost like an adolescent again, full of a new found strength and eager to live every day to its fullest.
Before I knew it, the foundations of my fledgling recovery program, which in reality was my fledgling relationship with God the Father through His son, Jesus Christ, was being pushed aside by my need to find my place and to be accepted by the traditions and people of the world.
It was as if the insanity that drove me to the brink of death was again taking hold on my soul. I was again being enchanted by the temptations of the world. It wouldn’t be long before I would once again experience the feelings of being less than, feelings that come when I compare my insides to the outward appearance of someone else.
Talk about something that would lead you to pick up that first drink, or that first drug. Better sign me up for How to Avoid Obsessions and Compulsions 101.
I have been blessed to be able to get through putting myself in this position more than once during my walk down the sobriety’s narrow and sometimes rocky path. And while you never want to suddenly realize this is where you are, the pains of the consequences of my sometimes overzealous decisions and activities have helped me to better understand the role I play in my own recovery.
Today, when I fill my heart with a willingness to take on life as it comes one day at a time, I can fill my soul with the acceptance of His grace, rather than with the emptiness of the desires of the world. Today, I no longer feel the need to seek the acceptance of others based on my own misguided perceptions. Today, I can share the blessings of sobriety with another sick or suffering alcoholic or addict. Today, I can participate fully in life, filled with the courage to live today as a sober Christian.
May God keep you and bless you in your sobriety today.
Jon B. Korn
Alcoholic, Addict and Sinner, Saved by Grace